Fallen Too Far (Chapter Eighteen)
Both of his hands cupped my face. His kisses slowed and then he pulled back still holding my face in his hands. "Come with me upstairs. I want to show you my room," he flashed me a naughty smile, "and my bed."
I nodded and Rush dropped his hands from my face. He slipped one of his hands into mine and threaded our fingers then squeezed. Without a word, he led me to the stairs pulling me gently up them in his hurry to get there. Once we got to the second floor, he pressed me up against the wall and kissed me fiercely, nipping at my lips and stroking my tongue. He jerked back and took a deep breath. "One more flight of stairs," he said in a gravelly voice and pulled me toward the door at the end of the hallway. We passed my room and he paused. At first, I thought he might want to go in there instead but he didn't stop until we reached the narrow door at the end of the hall. I'd wondered if that was the staircase leading to his room. He pulled out a key to unlock it, then opened the door and motioned for me to go ahead of him.
The stairwell was hardwood like the other set but there were walls on either side as we climbed the steep steps.
Once I reached the top step, I froze. The view was breathtaking. The moonlight highlighted the ocean giving the room the most fabulous backdrop imaginable.
"This room is why I had mom buy this house. Even at ten years old I knew this room was special," Rush whispered from behind me wrapping his arms around my waist.
"It's incredible," I breathed in a hushed voice. I felt as if talking too loud would ruin the moment.
"I called my dad that day and told him I'd found a house I wanted to live in. He wired my mother the money and she bought it. She loved the location so this is the house we spent our summers in. She has a house of her own in Atlanta but she prefers it here."
He was talking about himself. His family. He was trying. My heart melted a little more. I should stop him from edging his way any more into my heart. I didn't want it to hurt when it was over and he walked away. But I wanted to know more about him.
"I'd never want to leave," I replied in all honesty.
Rush kissed my ear softly. "Ah, but you've not seen my cabin in Vale or my flat in Manhattan."
No, I hadn't and I never would. However, I could picture him in those places. I had watched enough television to know what they looked like. This winter I could see him by a roaring fire in an elaborate cabin in the mountains with snow covering the ground outside. Or relaxing in his flat overlooking Manhattan. Maybe from his windows he could see big Christmas tree they always put up every year.
Rush turned me to the right until I was facing a king size bed. It was solid black. The bed itself and the quilt that covered it. Even the pillows were black. "And that's my bed," he said walking me toward it with his hands on my hips. I would not think about all the girls who had been here before me. I would not. I closed my eyes and blocked that thought out completely.
"Blaire, even if all we do is kiss or just lay there and talk, I'm okay with that. I just wanted you up here. Close to me."
Another little inch or two wedged into my heart. I turned around and looked at him, "You don't mean that. I've seen you in action Rush Finlay. You don't bring girls to your room and expect to just talk." I tried to sound teasing but my voice cracked when I mentioned the other girls.
Rush frowned, "I don't bring girls up here at all, Blaire."
What? Yes he did.
"The first night I came here you said your bed was full," I reminded him.
He smirked. "Yeah, because I was sleeping in it. I don't bring girls to my bedroom. I don't want meaningless sex tainting this space. I love it here."
"The next morning a girl was still here. You'd left her in bed and she came looking for you in her undies."
Rush slipped a hand underneath my shirt and began rubbing small circles on my back. "The first room to the right was Grant's room until our parent's divorced. I use it as my bachelor pad room now. That's where I take girls. Not here. Never here. You're my first," he paused and a grin tugged on his lips, "well, I let Henrietta come up here once a week to clean but I promise there is no hanky-panky going on between us."
Did this mean I was different? I wasn't one of many? God, I hoped so. No… no I didn't. I had to get a grip. He would be leaving me soon. Our worlds did not converge. They didn't even come close to each other.
"Kiss me, please," I said, standing on my tiptoes and pressing my mouth against his before he could protest or suggest we talk again. I didn't want to talk. If we talked I'd want more.
Rush pushed me back onto his bed and covered my body with his while his tongue tangled with mine. His hands ran down the sides of my body until he found my knees. He pulled my legs apart and settled in between the space he'd created.
I wanted to feel more of him. I grabbed handfuls of his shirt and tugged. He got the hint and broke our kiss long enough to pull it off and toss it aside. This time I had room to explore him. I ran my hands down his arms and the hard bulges of his biceps. I moved my hands to his chest and ran my fingers over his abs sighing in pleasure at the feel of each hard ripple. Sliding my hands up, I ran my thumb over each of his hard pecs and felt his nipples tighten under my touch. Oh my, that was sexy.
Rush pulled back and started unbuttoning the white shirt on my uniform almost frantically. When he got to the last button he pushed it back and tugged my bra down until both breasts sprang free of the lacy cups covering them.
He stuck his tongue out and flicked at one of my nipples. He moved to the other one and did the same before he lowered his head and pulled it into his mouth with one hard tug.
My body bucked against his and the hardness I'd felt brushing against my leg was now firmly wedged between my legs pressing directly on my ache. "AH!" I cried out, rubbing against his hardness and needing to feel more of it.
Rush let my nipple pop free of his mouth as he kept his eyes on me and lowered his body, leaving me once again without the pressure I needed. His hands unsnapped my skirt and he began pulling it slowly down along with my panties. He never took his eyes off me.
I lifted to allow him to pull them down over my hips with ease. Rush sat back on his knees and crooked his finger for me to sit up. I was ready to do whatever he asked. As soon as I was sitting he took my shirt the rest of the way off. Then he had my bra undone and tossed aside.
"You naked in my bed is even more unbelievably beautiful than I thought it would be… and trust me I've thought about it. A lot."
He moved back over me hooking his arms under my knees and settling back down between my legs. But he still had his shorts on. I wanted those off… OH!
Rush moved his hips over my spread open legs and pressed right where I needed him too.
"Yes! Please!" I scratched at him needing him to come closer.
Rush lowered his body moving his hands to hold the inside of each of my thighs as he kissed my belly button and then the top of my mound. He needed more hair. I wanted to pull at something.
His silver eyes lifted and locked with mine as his tongue slipped out and he ran the metal piercing right over my clit. I screamed his name and grabbed handfuls of the sheets too keep myself on the bed. I felt like I could sky rocket out the larger than life windows.
"God, you're sweet," Rush panted as he lowered his head to put his tongue on me again. I'd heard of this. I knew about it but I never imagined it could feel this good.
"Rush, please," I whimpered.
He paused over me. The warmth of his breath bathed the throb he had created. "Please, what, baby. Tell me what it is you want."
I shook my head back and forth and squeezed my eyes tightly. I couldn't tell him. I didn't know how to say it.
"I wanna hear you say it Blaire," Rush said in a strangled whisper.
"Please lick me again," I choked out.
"Damn," Rush cursed before running his tongue back through my folds. Then he pulled my swollen clit into his mouth and sent me spiraling off into space. The world erupted in color and my breathing stopped while pleasure coursed through me.
It wasn't until the descent down from my high that I realized Rush had left me and was now stripped down and lowering himself back over me.
"Condom is on; I need to be inside," Rush whispered against my ear as he pulled my legs open with his hands and I felt the tip of his shaft penetrate me.
"Holyfuck, you're so wet. It's gonna be hard not to slip right in. I'm going to try to go slow. I promise." His voice was strained and the veins in his neck stood out as he pressed further into me. It was stretching me but it felt good. The pain I had expected wasn't there. I shifted my body opening my legs further and Rush swallowed hard and froze.
"Don't move. Please baby, don't move," Rush pleaded, holding himself very still. Then he pushed further into my tightness before the pain hit. I tensed and so did Rush. "That's it. I'm gonna do it fast but then I'll stop once I'm in and let you get used to me."
I nodded and closed my eyes and reached up to grab a hold of his arms. Rush pulled back and then his hips moved forward with one hard thrust. Hot pain sliced through me and I cried out, squeezing his arms tightly and holding on while the wave of pain rocked through my body.
I could hear Rush's fast hard breathing as he held himself very still. I didn't know exactly how this felt for a guy but I could tell it wasn't easy. Rush was in some sort of pain.
"Okay. I'm okay," I whispered as the pain eased.
Rush opened his eyes and looked down at me. His eyes were smoky. "Are you sure? 'Cause baby, I want to move so damn bad."
I nodded and continued to hold onto his arms in case the pain came back when he moved. Rush's hips moved back and it felt like he was leaving me then he thrust forward slowly and filled me up again. There was no pain this time. I just felt stretched and full.
"Does it hurt?" Rush asked as he held himself still once again.
"No. I like it," I assured him.
Rush moved his hips back again and then plunged forward causing me to moan from pleasure. It felt good. More than good.
"You like that?" Rush asked in amazement.
"Yes. It feels so good."
Rush closed his eyes and threw his head back and let out a groan as he began to move faster. I could feel my body climbing higher again. Was that possible? Could I have another orgasm so soon?
All I knew was, I wanted more. I lifted my hips to meet his thrust and that seemed to make him frantic.
"Yeah. God, you're incredible. So tight. Blaire you're so fucking tight," he said through pants as he moved inside me.
I pulled my knees up so I could wrap my legs around his waist and he began to tremble. "Are you close, baby?" he asked in a strained voice.
" I think," I replied, feeling the building inside of me. I wasn't there yet though. The pain had slowed down any pleasure in the beginning. Rush slipped his hand down between us until his thumb rubbed against my throb.
"AH! Yes right there," I cried out and clung to him as the wave crashed over me. Rush let out a roar and went rigid and very still then he pumped into me one last time.